Today, I went out out with chel, jo and nic to watch New York I love You. It's nice and not as boring as I thought it will be since there is a lot of couples and each couple only have like 5 minutes of storyline. Love Orlando Bloom and the star trek supposedly french guy story plot. Except the fact that orlando bloom looks really ugly there thanks to his tattered clothes. but is still nice though. However, thanks to my bladder, I cant really concentrate halfway through the movie. And THANK GOD. the movie is like only 1 and half hour long. I would have died if it's 2h. Then we went ION to shop or rather say window-shopping since I have no money. haha. I love one clothes there in New look shop but hell! IS like so ex. Is almost 70!! My mum will kill me if I spent that on 1 clothes. haihx I will just bring my mum there someday and shop. haha. But I bought a notebook though. For writing stories when inspiration suddenly hits me. Well, I love writing stories but nowadays, I just do not have any inspiration in writing one, so I shall just wait till I have one. So yeah....after that, we went to eat dinner at ION w/o jo since she needs to leave:(:( THe food is sooo nice but is extremely fulling. haha but I want to eat it again someday. Katsudon!! Yum!
SO, me, nic and chel was like talking about guys....yea...weird. But anyway, we were like talking how guys are emotional being. haha maybe is true though. People who always act tough are usually the weakest one. Then about sleepover, I am surprised my mom actually allow my friends to sleepover at my house. Maybe she is opening up and feel optimistic about herself now, and I feel happy for her. I know she is a strong woman. And a brave one too. Sometimes, I will think what if this happens to me (well there is a 50% chance that it will happen to me as the doctor says)? Will I be able to be optimistic as her? I guess not. I may look optimistic but I know that I am not. But, I know that one day, I will learn to be a strong woman like my mum. She will always be my role model now. Her bravery and her strong-willed is not anyone can do it one.
But now, I dont know if I should tell my friends about my mum since they are going to have sleepover at my house. I dont want my mum to feel uncomfortable around them and vice versa. But I just dont know how to bring it up. I cant just suddenly say, " Hey!! my mum got cancer and is stage 3" That is ridiculous. I mean who will bring that up to friends and is not me. I dont share troubles with friends coz is not me. I have troubles even though I loks happy, coz the happier I am, the more troubles I have in fact. People like me tend to cover up their troubles with a big fake smile coz they are a coward. Coz they are afraid people finding out about your trueself and your weaknesses. They do not trust people coz they have been betrayed once by their most- trusted person. So people, if you happen to have a friend that is like this, help them, dont think that as tine goes by they will be alright, coz experience tells me they will not. Is impossible, they will just hide away and problems will get more and more serious. I have been betrayed by someone once and I know that I wll not believe anyone anymore in my whole life.
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