Chapter 25

It has been a while since I blogged about my life. LOL been too busy. relatives come to Singapore and I have been spending my time with them. So, Adeline came to Singapore and stayed with me for around 3 days. Went to orchard road on the 24th to satisfy my craving of Watami. Had it till I was so full, and then satisfy my craving of sour sally. LOL I think I ate so much that day that I was so full!! Good then. went to shop and bought myself 4 shirts and 1 shoes, guilty about it but I really loved it. hehe. then at night, I went to eat fast and quick food at Cine-leisure at Shokudo. Ordered just seafood salad and a green tea with red bean dessert to share. Is so delicious!! Then wen to church quickly for the Christmas eve mass. It was so crowded and I am so lucky to be there on time where there are still seats available for me, her, mum and bro. If not, I would have been dead because I was supposed to help them book the seats. LOL. I met my Sunday School friend, Jessica, and her family there. Mum was like omg, how come she got so fat but I do not dare to comment anything though, and even approached her. So, overall, that day was so tiring and went home only at like 11.30 plus.

The next day, Christmas, I went out again first to novena at 11, then to Vivocity then to Sentosa. Yeap, another tiring day. Mom wanted to eat lunch with me but I really did not want to, not because I do not want to eat with her, it just that I planned everything and I really do not like any changes is my plans. So, I declined and went out with Adeline. Ate at white dog cafe. It was so nice, especially the blackened pan-seared dory. the potato is nice too. Love it. then went shopping again but I decided not to buy anything since I bought too much on the previous day. Adeline bought a pair of flats though:D Then, we were so tired of walking again that we went to a yogurt place and ate frozen yogurt again. haha. Ordered a green tea frozen yogurt and with toppings such as red bean (cravings for it still after eating those combination at Shokudo), cereals, mango and strawberry. It was so nice! I wanted it again now, but I need to go to vivo to have it...man:( Then after shopping for a while more, we went to Sentosa for sightseeing. Went to the merlion to take pictures and then it started to rain! OMG, we had to buy raincoat and went to some random place just to avoid the rain and eat and wait for the song of the sea to start. so we went to one restaurant that serve authentic Singapore food. Not to my liking though. the spaghetti was horrible. The noodles were too soft and short and the tomato sauce lacked the punch. However, the satay was nice, especially the chicken satay. haha. waited for a while till the rain got thinner. then went to watch song of the sea. Despite the rain, it was still beautiful! I went there 3 times to watch and yet the first 2 times failed to watch because of the rain. 3rd time a charm I guess,LOL. then my brother was kind enough to fetch me from Sentosa with his girlfriend. But because I needed to go to the toilet urgently, we stopped at the hardrock hotel just for the toilet and so, I managed to get a glimpse of the hotel and the lobby. It was so nice and grand!! in a rocking way. Took pictures of it:D:D
Went home and that is when disaster struck. Mom was very upset that I did not eat with her and went to the church with her. So, she kind of reprimanded me saying I did not care bout her and father at all (well she mentioned me not replying his blessing sms)

Okay so now, I came here to pour out everything. When she say that I do not reply father's Christmas blessing, well I did not. But that is not because I do not care bout him, is just that I do not care bout Christmas. For me, Christmas is just another day, nothing special. I do not even wish anyone Christmas specifically. I treated Christmas as any other day, and those society who treated Christmas as special, they are just trying to get money out of their potential customers. Then me not caring about mom, is so not true. I just sometimes need my own space you know. I do not like to be with people every time, I like sometime alone. I think I am kind of a loner person, so it is reasonable that I prefer to be alone than with people around. I have enough trouble of my own and friends that I do not really want any troubles from my family and so I try to avoid them. Mom kind of teared and I tried hard not to especially the part when she said she will not live long. Seriously, I really did not want to hear any more of these pessimistic talks because it just brought upon unnecessary pain to me and the family. So, I hope this will not happen again.

The next day, we went to eat lunch with cici mei mei and her family. Went to eat at raffles place Prego. IS a buffet and it is so delicious! I love the scallop mousse, the salad bar and the strawberry pastries! It was so nice! And also the salmon with Italian herb. I love it. It was so expensive but luckily she had a 50% discount, I ate so much that I did not eat dinner. I am stilt fighting against my disorder but me eating in a buffet is a big step and I actually ate 3 servings of the pastries. So is all good.

Today went to school to do the FABM integrated project. Finished till around 6 and went to great world to buy food. Today was a big step to overcome my disorder too. I actually ate breakfast, then tom yam noodle (half) in the afternoon and then veggie pattie capriciossa (sandwich) for dinner. I ate normally for the first time. Did not do weigh in and I shall see if I gain weight tomorrow. Somehow, I wanted to but I do not want to either. It is a mixed feeling you know.... I can't help it. Finished clearing and cleaning my room. Hope dad will be satisfied as I spent much time to do this and sacrifices of my belongings too and also my comfortable private space.

Dad and my childhood friends will be coming tomorrow. It will be a noisy days for the days to come. I do not know whether to look forward to it or dread it.